Monday, December 24, 2007
I touched the sky filled with rain and heavy cold wind,
and somebody's hand held me,
and I was comfortable for a little bit...
At first I wait, if time goes by again, I will know how to smile.
I erased myself, who wanted things I couldn't get...
Like people say, if this corner is bitter like poison and sweeter than a lover, yes, to me, I wanted you to be my everything...
Living… with eyes wide shut…
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Things have happened, and I've realised that living life following every whim of my heart isn't such a bad thing and isn't as crazy as it sounds... well... to me... (other people might still think im crazy but *meh*)
I want to fly to wherever the wind takes me and take off or stay there for as long as I please. There’s no time for waiting anymore, I have to run, I can’t stay here and wait for the world to come to me. I don’t want to, and I can’t get left behind. No, not anymore. I have to see everything with my own eyes and touch it before it crumbles…
With impulse as my reasoning for everything… I wonder if this path that I’m taking will extinguish my own flame, or will it burn everyone around me? Will wanting everything lead me down the road to oblivion? Does that make me selfish? Impulse is the short road to a solution (whether it may be good or bad, right or wrong) but why do I now have so many more questions to ask?
What about responsibility? I’m scared I might get too caught up in my own whirlwind to care enough about the people around me… I want my eyes to become a little wider and to look a little further into the distance… but can I? The bruises all over my legs from walking into things say no… *sigh*
Wanting to soar into the blue vastness and having the ability to navigate through the storm clouds are two different things, but… I’ve grown stronger and I’ve gained a greater insight and understanding. I might not be able to get through them so quickly, I might bear the scars of my battles and sometimes, what I know may not be enough, but I believe I can make it. And besides, even if I don’t, it will be too late for me to realise…
I know, impulse and the absence of rationalisation has been the cause of demise for many… and it might be mine, but ill take my chances and ill be happy in every moment I can.
Even though my questions are plentiful, the one that strikes me most is…
What is life, if you’re only saving it for a rainy day?
my feet have left the ground...
Saturday, December 8, 2007
Yesterday at work i practically had to look after a section BY MY SELF *dies* I WAS SUPPOSED TO ONLY BE LOOKING AFTER 2 TABLES!!! but the supervisor sent almost everyone working in my section home at 9pm, and 2 tables turned into 15!!! WTH!!! *dies* and i was running around nonstop @_@" screw weightwatchers man!!! join atruim!!! well ill take solace in the fact that by next thursday... SOMEONE is going to be LOADED BABY!!! muAHhAHAH!!! DBSK CHIGEUM KAGO ISSUH!!! X)
I've just realised how short my days are becoming, especially since work takes up half of it! I haven't gotten round to almost ANYTHING and i can't help but feel a little unproductive... *sigh* korean has been on the backburner for a while and i haven't gone grocery shopping for AGES so that means i havent cooked anything for a long time either, not to mention that my car and room are BOTH covered with a layer of dust 1inch thick. Lecture notes are still piled up in the corner of my room and my car's 5000km service is slowly turning into a 8000km service... I know i can stand being around such imcompleteness but... do i really want to? I want to amount to something...
Well that was an easy way to waste half an hour ^^ off to pick up my lil bro from chinese schoolies so ddobozza peoples!!! X)
Friday, December 7, 2007
Went "shopping" at Garden City with shmoogoo before I had to go to work then on the way home I was driving down jackson avenue and THIS FREEKING CAR JUST FREEKING REVERSES OUT OF ITS FREEKING DRIVEWAY!!! and i beeped LIKE FREEKING TWICE AND THEY DIDNT EVEN FREEKING HEAR ME and i was braking but too late... and BANG!!! FREEKING HELL MAN!!! ARGH!!! SO FREEKING BLIND!!! AND THEN TO MAKE THINGS WORSE, WHEN IT HIT ME, THEY FREEKING REVERSED BACK SOME FREEKING MORE!!! WHAT THE FREEKING HELL MAN!!! and then turned out to be SOME FREEKING DUMBASS INDIAN LADY WITH SOME FREEKING WEIRD HOME PHONE NUMBER so EXCUSEEEEEEE MEEEEEEE for BEING A LITTLE BITCHY WHEN I SAY I WANT UR MOBILE PHONE NUMBER AS WELL!!! and DUNT FREEKING SAY THAT THERE IS NOTHING FREEKING WRONG WITH MY FREEKING CAR which BY THE WAY, UR GONNA FREEKING PAY FOR!!! ARGH!!! FREEKING HELL MAN!!! okies... im soooooooo going to anger management class...
Then i went to work which started at 6pm and when i stepped out of my car the realisation that i WORE THE WRONG SHOES TO WORK HIT ME!!! i was wearing my silver ballerina shoes @_@""" so i changed and went to find the supervisor and he let me go ALLLLLLLL the WAY BACK HOME to change my shoes and wen i got back it was 6:50pm already @_@""" and then it turned out to be FREEKING BUSY LIKE HELL but i didnt mind kekekke made time pass by quickly and FOR ONCE i got to stay back until CLOSING TIME!!! *YAY* so i stayed until 12 and the supervisor said dont worry about when i came late and wrote down i started at 6pm on the timesheet!!! *YAYYY* And during work, some i accidentally stepped on the shoe of one of the guys who worked at atruim and and he smacked my butt!!! @_@"""
So that was the end of my eventful day... and i was going to blog about yesterday's buffet but im too tired so 2molo okies??? X)
Thursday, December 6, 2007
Hmmm... It's amazing how washing my bed sheets turned into such philosophy... It's only that pulling up the sheets messed up all the pillows, JUST when everything shuffled around and found its place. And now that it's bed time, I've begun to feel
s l i g h t l y sentimental... *sniff* well hopefully when i wake up everything would have reshuffled back, and I'm back to my normal self kekkeke...
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
Was kinda windy and after casing out the joint, we found somewhere to dump our stuff and shmoogoo went to swim while i was... f r o l i c k i n g (caroline's word) along the shore ^^ but then i ended up getting all wet so frolick turned into swimming, which i havent done since new year's day but the water was actually REALLY NICE!!! even though the wind was cold *YAY* Then shmoogoo went to sunbake since he's so white and all... but i fink the sun would've prolly bleached him anyways so... NOOOOOO BINGOOOOO ^^
When ur at the beach u HAVE to dig a massive hole and cover SOMEONE up so...
UGH!!! so NOT KOOL!!! i SPENT SOOO LONG trying to cover him up and he gets up like he's just woken up from bed *sigh*
My turn!!! kekeke my first time getting buried in sand O_o"
Checking out the scenery, we were confronted with 2 dudes in what appeared to be their underwear and to make matters WORSE, one or the guy's was WHITE *DIES* and the other dude's was red and somehow... those 2 running down the beach together seemed... oh i dunno... SO GAYYYYYY!!! and dunt get me started when those 2 started going swimming!!! *DIES AGAIN*
By then, the cold and wind was starting to take its toll and i was starving since i never at lunch so shmoogoo test drove my car to freo to get fish and chips (which i havent eaten since i was a lil kid) and WHAT?!?!? my car handles OKAY ONLY!??!?! *DIES for the third time* if anyone is looking for me... ill be in the corner with my hands over my ears and rocking back and forth in foetal position pretending i SO DIDNT HEAR THAT!!!
My super HAPPY fish and chips ^______^v
shmoogoo's errr... emo fish and chips...
After we went back to shmoogoo's house and i got to PLAY WITH HIS DOGGIES AGAIN!!! *YAYYYYYYYY* and this time mizu liked me!!!!!!!! *YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY* SO CUTEEEEEEEEE!!! *PAT PAT PAT PAT PAT PAT PAT PAT AWAYYYYYYYYY* then we played big2 and i had the BESTEST CARDS EVER!!! *does victory dance* but then shmoogoo hell kicked me in memory @_@" ahhh wells XD To finish off a long day, o2jammed the night away until i was so tired i could've almost fell asleep on my keyboard and dribbled all over it and electrocuted myself X)
Sunday, December 2, 2007
It was SO HIGH kekkeke and DONT TELL ME U CANT SEE IT!!! U HAVE TO!!! SQUINT DAMMIT SQUINT!!! its that little dot up in the sky X) *hint: its the lil dot between the tree and the blue patch of sky slightly left of centre of the photo!!! SQUINT HARDER DAMMIT!!!
Saturday, December 1, 2007
As they say, a picture speaks a thousand words...
it came with a special photo thingy thats kinda transparent...
TOOK ITS SWEET TIME GETTING TO MY DOOR!!! FINALLY got it today kekeke so... of course i had to do some last minute cam whoring with the shirt before dashing off to work X)
And the shirt goes so well with my XIAH earrings X)
Now if only i had my yunho necklace... kekekke
Moving on to other things... HAD THE BEST FOOD TODAY at WORK!!! i was STARVINGGG as usual... seeing as i dunt have time to eat dinner before i go to work and i dunt eat at at the cafeteria even tho ITS FREE *sigh* i dont want eat by myself... its just too lonely... but today was just my luck!!! *wink* We got chicken and roast beef and more chicken and lamb curry and ice cream and roast pumpkin and crab (dammit its too hard to eat so i didnt =P) and the left over breadrolls and cheesecake and chocolate cake *drools* man that was SOME FREEKING GOOD CAKE!!! so... caroline... are u HUNGRY yet??? kekekke i must say... i really luv my job X)
I thought today i was handling things better than i had been... turns out... it was just the quiet before the storm... and i was wrong... i didnt handle it at all... i was so so wrong...
Friday, November 30, 2007
Hrms... havent blogged for a few days... i've forgotten what i've been up to...
On Wenesday... i got into the O2JAM groove at yee yang's house (oh god! i can feel the onset of nolifenecrosis! *screams*) then shmoogoo finished his exams so we went to celebrate, since everyone else was too busy to join *sad face* (LONER'S ARE KOOL OKAY?!?! STOP LAUGHING!!!) >_<" kekekke Parked on a really pretty street lined with those autumnal trees then viet food turned into moon cafe and they have this GIGANTIC FAKE CLOCK that was all red and emo O_o" (but kool! keke) oh yah we got busted cuz i bought a cake for shmoogoo and we were eating it and APPARENTLY its against their policy to let people eat food other than their own O_o" well MY policy is to whack that chick over the head!!! *shakes fist* (OH! SO VIOLENT FEL!!!) well... no... im not like that... REALLY *smiles sweetly* then... we went to timezone where i cant play ddr on the machines for nuts and got bubbletea at utopia and after walking up and down the same street trying to decide wat to do... we ended up going karaoke and cost only $8 for 2 hours X) *yay* jeez time went by really fast it was 12 by the time we finished O_o" then when i got home i spent the rest of the time trying to get o2jam to work on my comp but it DIDNT!!! DAMMIT!!! i was so knackered by then, i went to sleep ^^
Yesterday i FINALLY got O2JAM up and running, cuz as i suspected, yee yang didnt give me the ACTUAL GAME *evils yee yang* (JUST JOKING LAH!!! kekeke saranghae yee yang!!! ^^) so i had to dld it. O2JAMMED until i had to go to work and i got 2ND TIP TODAY muAHhaHHA $1.10!!! i got... $1.75 last time... so that brings the total to $2.85!!! WOOHOO!!! We had new supervisor today, actually he was the guy that made edmond's and my cocktail last time we all went to spice lounge and i asked him if he still remembered how to make an emond's cocktail and he DID!!! thats so KOOL!!! X) i also FINALLY got my name tag and swipey card, ROCK ON!!! When i got hope... *hangs head* O2JAMMED!!! (i hope it doesnt turn chronic O_O") then sleepy byes ^^
When i woke up today... got breakfast and then... *shifty eyes* O2JAMMED!!! ARGH!!! now that im actually BLOGGING about it i see how bad this o2jam thing SOUNDS *screams* okies NO MORE!!! *shakes head* well i think thats al folks! X) Going back to O2JA... WASH THE CLOTHES!!!
Monday, November 26, 2007
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Friday, November 23, 2007
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Dropped by coles for watermelon and cucumber and i was THIS close to buying cumcumber for $2.50 each but i decided to check sumwhere else and it was $1.45!!! AWSOME!!! XD then i found the koolest watermelon and plonked it on the counter, and the lady weighed it and said some very scary words... *clouds come rolling in and thunder crackles* she said... $16.45... *dies* WTH!?!??! ARE U SERIOUS!?!??! after i recovered from my shock and picked my chin up off the floor and bought a pre-cut QUARTER of one for like $6.50 but it looked like HALF the size of the one i wanted to buy originally *shifty eyes* SCAMMERS i TELL U!!! *shakes fist* ahhhh... the escapades grocery shopping can bring u... its crazy @_@"
SeKsHiii YuN WuN and Me ^^
Monday, November 19, 2007
Wat can i say... i think life has been good to me right now *nods* i feel more alive than i have been in a long time ^^ meeting new people and learning new things, my heart doesnt feel so empty.
pic of SHMOOGOO!!!
On saturday, SHMOOGOO, my bowl of seafood went hyper all over msn @_@", but i found the trick to make him obey is to bribe him with SCHMAKOS!!! *dangles schmakos over shmoogoo's head* and by some miracle i had enuff energy to go to metros coming out of that convo because wen u leave the comp for 5 secs to pick up ur fone and come back to 5 pages of NEW shmoogoo spazz, u need ALOT of energy to catch up @_@" now got fetch me my newspaper shmoogoo!!! *shakes fist* kkekek my frend finally convinced me to go clubbing and im glad i did cuz turned out to be the BESTEST CLUBBING TIME I EVER HAD X) no, i didnt drink, i just met a lot of my frends, especially Chuong my ex-calc frend cuz it was his bday also (damn i shouldve shouted him a B151!!!), and they made all the difference ^^ its funni tho, i saw a lot of my work buddies from atruim and most of them... yah i say hi to them and ask them how their exams went, u noe the usual chit-chat u make wen u dont know sumone that well... but at metros wen we all saw each other... TOTALLY DIFFERENT STORY! its like *eye contact*, *super grin* *pointing at each other*, then comes the huge HEYYYYY!!!! and *HUG HUG* hahahah i guess music brings us together ekkekek ^^
Sunday... i went grocery shopping and i was so happy because i found boree cha which i was really desperate for X) and at the counter the total came to $27.30 but my wallet only had $27.25 so i was fishing around in my bag for change but the lady let me off so i SAVE 5 CENTS!!! so if i save 5 CENTS here and ANOTHER 5CENTS THERE, i can go to the 10 CENT STORE!!! and i was so happy and day dreaming about dbsk i drove home only to look in my shopping bag and wonder why 2 cup noodles and a bottle of vinegar cost me $27.25!!! GREATTT! i left the OTHER bag at the counter so i had to drive all the way back to get it and the lady was smiling at me wen i walked in ekkeke then i made kimchi jeon and bulgogi which i really liked how it turned out ^^ but too bad noone was home when they were still warm and crispy *sigh*
Today... i went to 2 different grocery stores all the the name of nashi pear... and no luck... *sob sob* i really wanted to make kalbi jim... =__=" guess they are not in season animore... well... i ended up making mu kimchi (radish) ^^ which i really like atm kekeke and then i went to church with my frends and today was really special because one of my frends was the leader and another one was the chairman, and also because it was my first time i got prayed for, and im very thankful in my heart ^^
Now im looking forward to tomorrow X) which i have the feeling will be another great day life has given to me kekeke